struggling yet still enjoying statistics. 4 weeks of sch past in a flash and the workload is getting exponentially high and stressful. hmm come to tink of it.. not really workload cos usually finish tut way before hand. It's the effort that is needed to understand what the prof are talking about. Applying all that i learn in the past 3 yrs into the 4th yr of study.. which usually aft each sem, most things that are learned are forgotten once i leave the examination hall. they are usually extremely abstract and there is really no way to rem them.
Jus finished reading thru my prof thesis (>200 pages) and found some err.. need to go thru it again but in more detail as ny stat prof coming back fm overseas soon and i need to give him a summary. so much things to do yet so little time!!! hai.. if i am as faithful in studying God's work, i will be able to find infinitely many errors of my own ways.
alw feeling so tired and having more intense headaches. not enuf rest= alot of time wasted..imagine the irony. spend lesser time sleeping, means sld have more time at hand.. but very high proportion of these time get wasted. feeling sick again!!! xian!!! have been falling sick since the past few weeks.. during times of tiredness, i often make extremely horrible decisions.
cant wait to hear from my beloved sis soon.. she's away in paris again!!!! traveling again!!! haha.. so glad that she can take a break fm work and stuffs and hopefully have a relaxing time there. well.. frankly cant wait for 16 dec to arrive. then i will get to bully her!!! yeah..
though we are miles away, she neva fails to call to encourage when things are tough either at home or in sch.
hard times bring me closer to God (i hope).. its when i reach the end of myself, that i will realize of God's infinite resources, power and grace. well.. i dun mind trying times bcos these are the times i tink i grow and mature.. sometimes we wonder why certain things happens, yet in eternal perspective it doesnt matter!!! wat really matters is wat we take from it, and who we eventually becomes.
What does it take for us to become who God wants us to be? Or are we doing things jus to please men? from experience pleasing men sometimes ends up in disappointment. yet if all things are done to please God, then the outcome doesnt matter. (haha.. outcome sldnt matter.. yet its so hard to apply when we are in a world that see only results. so blinded that they cant see my "sweet character".. haha). well.. at the end of the day, we are only answerable to God not man.
It amazes me how God can love us the same! nothing more or nothing less.. when all our ugly side ( the motives, tot, weaknesses, etc..) are transparently before him. PTL for who He is!!!
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